Here's the Thing

The funny thing about the past year and a half is that I wrote a blog post saying I wanted to blog more and then never did (insert upside down smiley face).

The thing is, the desire to blog never came back to me like I thought it would after writing that post. I truly thought writing it would kick me back into gear, but what I was lacking was the drive to do it in the first place. Until yesterday, yep you’re reading that right… yesterday, I thought I was completely done with the blog. It’d be a portfolio of sorts of my work and nothing more. But then yesterday came along.

I was scrolling Pinterest for work and I got an ad for an affiliate marketing brand. Out of the blue I clicked on it and decided to sign up. Why? I’m not sure. I’m not an aspiring influencer by any means, but I do enjoy taking pictures and making videos so I figured why not try to make some money there. Then that drove me to going to my blog for the first time in MONTHS. And while scrolling my home page, it hit me that I created something here and I actually missed it.

At the beginning of the week I was asked, “are you doing enough things that fill your cup?” Sadly, my answer to that was no. And not only that but I didn’t even know what those things would be. I had no idea what I could even do to fill my cup. But now I’m thinking maybe I go back a few years. Where blogging used to be my creative outlet and that’s what I did in my free time. 

I want to share my favorite products, even if two people care. And I want to share my thoughts, even if no one is listening. At least it gives them a place to live outside my head. And we know I NEED to get out of my own head every once in a while. Even if this blog is just for me, I think I want to give it another go. It’s putting a pen to paper in the digital age.

I think the difference between now and a year and a half ago is that now I WANT to do this. The spark is reignited. I’m not trying to keep a fire going that isn’t burning to begin with. I don’t want to think too much. I want to write and publish, which is exactly what I’m doing with this post. It finally feels good to write again, and my goal is to keep it that way.